The Right Trajectory

Sometimes the circumstances in our lives do not seem coincidental. Sometimes it's in a miraculous blessing that increases our faith that Heavenly Father knows us personally. 

One time, my circumstances were pretty hard to accept, but I knew it wasn't a coincidence. When my husband and I married, we knew we wanted 4 to 6 children. I have a deep love of the gospel, so I was excited at the prospect of raising children full of faith. After our first, we experienced infertility. After our miraculous second baby, my health declined. Perplexing symptoms affected my physical and mental health, while making motherhood much more of a challenge. It felt as if someone was trying to pulverize me into the ground and crush my dreams along with my mind and body. 

I came to realize that I could easily give up my dreams. I knew my challenges weren't a coincidence, which meant only one thing: the change in my trajectory was Heavenly Father's way of guiding me into my own personal niche in the kingdom. I feel so confident now that my less than healthy body and my delicate balance of mood and medication and the chronic illness that will possibly lead to more chronic illness - that that is where Heavenly Father needs me to fulfill my part in the kingdom. I'm still working on what that part is, but I'd infinitely rather be on this trajectory knowing it's the way Heavenly Father wants me to build the kingdom, than be in the trajectory I wanted to choose for myself, no matter how good and righteous it seemed to me when I thought I had it all figured out.